or in the heart or in the head?
- Merchant of Venice Act 3, Scene 2
When did you know it was time to change your life?
For me it was this week. I can't say the moment it happened, or what specific thing triggered it. In fact, it was many small things all piled up to present me with the undeniable fact things had to change.
A tremendous hail storm damaged our house to the point we need a new roof and new siding. Our house is so old the contractors say we need a few new windows and two new doors. Fixing all that's wrong with it would cost a fortune. Good thing the insurance will cover the storm damage.
My coworker just quit to go on a five-month adventure with his wife to all the national parks from Ohio to Washington state, and then live there. I suddenly felt restless and left behind. I took a look at my job and realized I've been there two years. Two years part-time because I wanted to work toward another career. Two years unable to afford a 'real' vacation ('real' being plane tickets someplace nice with money for a hotel and activities) because of being part-time. Two years staring at library shelves that didn't have my books on them, books that didn't have my illustrations in them.
I've been hiding, or maybe I haven't been ready. But I think I am now. This is how I know:
- I daydream about the career I want, not the job I have.
- I'm no longer satisfied with what I'm doing.
- I've turned down promotions at my day-job because I was planning for this.
- When I think about having this career I feel happy, and it feels right.
- I was born to do this.
I admit, I'm afraid. I've never tried to go pro. I've balked from querying as an illustrator for over two years now. There are countless concerns I have, countless excuses holding me back, but I can't wait any longer. It's time.
Are you at a big turning point in your life, or have you been through one? What signs let you know it was time to change?